So here I am continuing to reflect on what has been and I'm thinking about the anti depressant the Royal Children's Hospital had me taking for a short time at the tail end of 2008. At the time I was experiencing pain in my achilles tendon and this was just as the other tendons and ligaments began to give way.
They told me that this med would a) help with the depression, b) stop the pain and c) help me sleep. I don't believe it helped with the depression but then it would depend who you ask (because what on Earth could I ever know about myself) but I know for sure it didn't help me sleep nor did it stop the pain.
At the time I took very little interest in this med, but now having googled it, I'm quite literally offended. What they were really implying in giving my this med was that I was experiencing phantom pain and that there was actually nothing wrong with my ankle, nor any other limb on my body.
They also tried various 'therapies' to get my brain to accept that I was imagining it all. Two years later, I'm very offended and put off. My experiences at the RCH have been anything but inspiring and I can't bring myself to support them. I'm sure they do great things for other kids, but for me, well I was loco. It sounds like I wasted my time you know?
And now I'm sorry I didn't listen to my counsellor of the time when she said "are you sure they're not lying to you?
- CG
thats awful..
ReplyDeletewhat a load of crap, how can they do that? my advice though is don't write of antidepressants just because doctors screwed you over in the past...theyve helped a lot of people thru tough times including myself...
and they take time, everyone wants an overnight fix but it can take up to 2 months to feel any effects...it also depends greatly on the person and which meds ur using...i've been on 3 main different antidepressents before, the first did nothing, the second made me worse, and the ones i've been on for over a year now, well i believe they are the reason i get by day to day without feeling like death..
sometimes it's just about trial and error...maybe theyre not for you...but never rite off anything...
xx