Today's weight: 68kg

What will everyone think when I'm gone?

It's not what you're thinking. I'm just upset and lost and probably a little confused but I can't see the confusion clearly right now. I have so much to say and yet I can't seem to find the words for it.

I just wanted things to work out, but now I don't know if they will. What if they don't?

Some days I feel like no matter how hard I try, I'll never get anything right, I'll never be good enough. I'm never going to be that person I'd envisioned.

How can I be?

I'm too messed up. Too broken. Too confused. Too worried. Too scared. Too, I don't know, me?

Why?

- CG