The Thing About Tomorrow

We're all dying, every single one us, every single moment of every single day.
Now don't argue with me, because you know it's true. We all come to a point in life where we die. It's our time and we are gone. Not so much forgotten, but most definitely gone. So why am I even thinking about this? I don't know, I just feel crappy. So that's my current train of thought.

So, the thing about tomorrow is that it's not tomorrow at all. Because tomorrow never comes. And if tomorrow never comes, how do we get anywhere in life? I tell you, it's a good thing we define the progress of a week by the days with names. Which is equally as ridiculous as anything else because, technically today is thursday, but whose to actually say it's not monday? See what I mean?

I couldn't care less if you don't, but just try to broaden your thinking. You might enjoy it. But that's just what I think. And what I think is completely insignificant. But you obviously care because you're reading this.

Moving on..

I'm so mean to myself. I punish myself with blades and food etc. What next? Who knows. I mean, who knows anything when the thing that scares you most is yourself? Isn't that an ugly thought. Because, really that's all I've got to fear. The conflictions within. Do I talk or not talk. Harm or not harm. Wake or not wake. Decisions, decisions. But this is what I'm stuck with when I toss and turn and don't sleep. Hence the need to get up and do homework at some ridiculous hour of the morning. It's rather counterproductive sometimes. But what else can I do right?

Bye for not but not forever,
- the original CG and Hope

I Still Think Pokemon Are Cool!

Yes, sad as it may or may not be, I am still enjoying pokemon. Good ol' Pikachu. 93.3% of people remembered Pikachu according to this quiz. Weird.
Everyone will be glad to know that my ringtone is currently the original pokemon theme song.
I wanted to embed this, but they wouldn't let me :(

And you should watch this.

Ok, I swear that's it with the Pokemon links!

"Pokemon, gotta catch em all, it's you and me, i know its my destiny, pokemon, oooh you're my best friend in a world we must defend"
Yep, sad I know.

tehehehe

On the downside, my wrists are totally screwed. Playing guitar hero without taping my hands was THE worst idea ever! Point is, I'm actually really good at it :D

Justice didn't go to a practise raceday today, soon though.
I can already see the beginnings of a rash on my wrists.

It totally begs the question though, how can I possibly have a list of problems this long in today's day and age?
The Royal Children's Hospital gave up on me, and well.... it didn't get better, it just got worse. It's just bullshit, for lack of a better word. It makes me feel bad and it is bullshit.

Anyhoo..

Bye for now but not forever,
- the original CG and Justice