End Week

Another friday has passed, and another saturday ends.

Spent the day at the races, and some fair time with my Hope horse. Good photos once again, could only have been better if it was sunny. Haven't really spoke to Apache's crew much lately, but I'm now looking forward to visiting the Apache not this sunday (as in tomorrow) but the next. Exciting times.

But my Hope horse, she's funny.

As I walked her this morning (she didn't do trackwork, not sure why) I really noticed how much smaller than Justice she is. It's funny now, going from big, crazy/pyscho Justice, to small and relatively quiet Hope. It's nice in a way I guess.

They both share that same love of grass and hugs now. Yes, Hope and I have established hugs.

I stopped by on my way home from the races, and spent some 10mins cuddling, patting and playing with her. She thinks it's fun to eat my fingers, and for that matter my camera. I disagree, but that is probably expected. And I spose now that I have really bonded with my new horse. She is mine, now lets see someone take her from me. Hilarious and it won't happen.

Hope playing with me this afternoon...

Unfortunately, I've gone backwards on the whole self harm thing. Not proud of it, but apparently such is life. Point is, no one says anything, so it's all good for the time being.

I stayed back after school on friday to talk with my homeroom teacher. I can never get out what I need to get out. We focused on my pain, and I cried. It's harsh I guess. But what do you do?

Bye for now but not forever,

- the original CG and Hope

Do we all Feel the Pain?

I'm sure I'm annoyed so why the confusion? And if I knew the answer to that I wouldnt pose the question now would I.

Wow. The amount of tape I went through today, just to get to school was incredible. Ankle, shin, calf, knee. And I was still in pain. Gotta love this universe, not. In fact, I can't even remember what it's like to not be in pain. I have absolutely no recollection of that feeling. Some of you may think, 'and?'. Well, to you I say, "you take the feeling of no pain for granted." Of that I am convinced, because I know I took that lovely pain free state for granted.
But, is anyone truly pain free in this world? Does anyone person immune to a constant pain? I don't know. Perhaps we all have our own hurt. Physical, mental.

Now you wonder why I spoke of this, and then you think you totally understand. And well, to help you totally understand, imagine feeling the worst pain you've ever felt during your life span.
Now imagine living with that for two years, two months and twenty-four days.

Bye for now but not forever,
- the original CG and Hope

I Still Think Pokemon Are Cool!

Yes, sad as it may or may not be, I am still enjoying pokemon. Good ol' Pikachu. 93.3% of people remembered Pikachu according to this quiz. Weird.
Everyone will be glad to know that my ringtone is currently the original pokemon theme song.
I wanted to embed this, but they wouldn't let me :(

And you should watch this.

Ok, I swear that's it with the Pokemon links!

"Pokemon, gotta catch em all, it's you and me, i know its my destiny, pokemon, oooh you're my best friend in a world we must defend"
Yep, sad I know.

tehehehe

On the downside, my wrists are totally screwed. Playing guitar hero without taping my hands was THE worst idea ever! Point is, I'm actually really good at it :D

Justice didn't go to a practise raceday today, soon though.
I can already see the beginnings of a rash on my wrists.

It totally begs the question though, how can I possibly have a list of problems this long in today's day and age?
The Royal Children's Hospital gave up on me, and well.... it didn't get better, it just got worse. It's just bullshit, for lack of a better word. It makes me feel bad and it is bullshit.

Anyhoo..

Bye for now but not forever,
- the original CG and Justice