Jumps Protesters Go Too Far

The 'Jumps Debate' is an issue very close to my heart, as it is with anyone involved with horses. I was going to go the races today, but opted out keeping in mind that I had to work the following day. I read an online article just now, detailing how smart steeplechaser Geeorb broke down today and it went on to talk about anti-jumps protesters and how they'd blocked the horse ambulance that was taking Geeorb to the Werribee Vet Clinic.

It makes me mad.

What were they trying to achieve other than making themselves look like a pack of tools? It's time Racing Victoria followed South Australia's lead and banned any form of protesting from racecourses on racedays.

I couldn't believe it when they all rushed off at this meet last year to take photos of Spanish Symbol's corpse, and this year they've blown me away again.

Herald Sun Article on the event

Well, there's my small anger release.

Hopefully Justice is still in work when I go in tomorrow.

Bye for now but not forever,
- the original CG and Justice

Further Wonderings

So, you know. I wonder, a lot. And write a lot of crap, distracting crap, but nonetheless crap. And I've been thinking way too much about things lately.

Like the friends thing, I'm pretty sure its me who is differnt. I don't know why or how. But I'm less inclined to sit with them now. Couldn't tell you why. They want to know why. I used a silly excuse. I needed an excuse to go, there it is.
I like the new group. I say a lot more, feel more comfortable.

I hate it when things change like this.

And school, where to start.
Being in an academic class is difficult, because I feel incredibly stupid in some classes. And when I don't understand, I don't even know what I don't understand. It's freaking ridiculous.

And to add insult to injury I haven't self harmed in months, but you know. There's a cut!?

Still nothing RE: Justice. But then no news is good news in racing!

Bye for now but not forever,
- the original CG and Justice

Is it Me who Has changed?

It's been like two days, which is awkward, perhaps, but the point is I have my internet back (long story).

Well, it was my birthday on tuesday. Got a new camera, which was brilliant. I've now moved up 6 megapixels in the world!!!
And I saw Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince with some mates.

But, since going back to school from Community Service, I feel like something has changed in my group, and I'm now more comfortable with other people. It's weird, I feel like I've been waiting for an excuse to move away, and I don't know. It's weird. I'm weird (and proud of it).
I just feel like having a massive whinge about school and friends. I did today, sort of.

Anyhoo, not much to report on the Justice front. I don't even know how he pulled up.

Bye for now but not forever,
- the origina CG and Justice

He Ran Terrible

Justice ran really badly, I dunno what went wrong. It was stressful watching him come home... Something has to be wrong, because Justice has heart.


As promised, photos:

Prancing like a tool

Jockey Up

Dunno what's happening here

"OM NOM NOM NOM NOM!"

"Oh, hello"

"I'm a pretty boy"

Bye for now but not forever,

- the original CG and Justice

Tomorrow Is the Day

That's right, tomorrow is the day Justice returns to racing, its all very exciting. Hopefully he wins. It's needless to say that their will be lots of pictures.

But, I do wonder at the sanity of my brother at times. He's a physchotic smart arse. Sometimes its scary. You wonder if he'll really hurt you this time? (to be added to my list of wonderings!) It makes you feel bad, all the yelling and fighting, like it's your fault. You want to harm yourself, you want to feel loved. And they you wonder if you are capable of loving.

I mean, I care about people, but do I love them? I don't know that I know love.
I love Justice, that was inevitable in the end.

Wish us luck tomorrow!

Bye for now but not forever,
- the original CG and Justice

It's Finally Over

Well, I'm pleased to announce that community service is O V E R!!!!!

I spose it wasn't all bad. The grade three girls were quite amusing, very loud, screeching constantly. I got to correct maths work today, and it hurt my head and I couldn't believe I knew the answers off by heart at the end of it all! >.<

It puts you off teaching things like that.

But, its over. One more thing out of the way.

Raceday count: One day to go!

Bye for now but not forever,
- the original CG and Justice

I Wonder

I spend much of my day staring into space and daydreaming. And then when I get to bed, my mind is in overdrive, and I start wondering things.

So here is my list of wonderings:

• I wonder what it's like to feel no pain.
• I wonder if God really did speak to Moses.
• I wonder what it's like not to feel sad.
• I wonder what would have happened if I hadn't been introduced to Justice and the other horses I work with.
• I wonder what would have happen if I'd stood up for myself in primary school.
• I wonder at wondering.
• I wonder why bad things keep happening.

And then I stop. And feel sad again. Because the bad things keep happening, and I wonder, "where did I go wrong?". And then I cry myself to sleep.

It's a sad cycle that I wish would stop, but, it is going to be my life it would seem. Depressing.

And to add insult to injury, I couldn't get to sleep last night due to pain in my wrist that stopped me typing last night. I had to patch up. Miraculous things those patches.

Mine are called Icewave, they take the pain away, using light crystals and acupuncture points. Amazing.

Only two more days til Justice's race.

Bye for now but not forever,

- the original CG and Justice