Cheers to you if you end up reading this. I've become really, really inconsistent. But I promise I'm here to stay now. Notice I made the blog all pretty and new?
Just because I feel like informing you all... I have yet another new job. Yes, in the stables again. I think I'll be at this one for a long while. Been there since May and loving it.
It's kind of nice being back here. Having my space. My hard copy journal is cool but this is cool too. Bit more freedom with the decoration and such... Okay, okay! Enough.
And now, because you all love me so much you get to listen to me whinge! I'm kidding, you don't have to read it, consider this your warning.
Okay?
I think that hate is one of the most overused words in the English language, but I feel it applies here. I hate my family. I hate that its all double standards. I hate the fighting. I hate the name calling. I hate the use of weapons. I hate the obsessions. I have the fear. I hate feeling like I live in a war zone.
I think I just plain hate being around them altogether. And I'm not the sort of person who has lots and lots of friends and can go out all day and all night. Not just that, but I'm shy too and I just get tired out all to easily. So I stick around and just allow things to get worse. But what else can I do? If I can't leave, can't hide, can no longer just sit there and take it... all there is to do is fight back. Which is not ideal. Because once one person gets yelling, we all get yelling. It's not an ideal environment.
Everyone's just stressed all the time.
It sucks. I don't know what to do. No one has any answers. You know, its all just "deal.with.it"
Right.
Bye for now, but not forever (promise!)
- CG
just hide in your wardrobe...thats what i do..
ReplyDeletei have a really old falling apart semi walk in wardrobe..and theres a little crawl space behing my draws...some times i crawl up there with my blanket and chocolate..no one knows i'm there even if they come right into my room... it's fantastic :)